RT: Karma's gonna visit you too.

So Keltie's latest blog post made me wanna write this.
I just wanna point out that no matter what people think of me, not matter what rumors have been spread or what judgements people have made about me on a false basis, I just wanna say something:
I like me.
Call me bigheaded. Call me arrogant. Call me cocky. Call me whatever makes you feel better about yourself for trying to bring someone else down.
It's not arrogance. It's confidence.
I'm sorry I don't complain when I'm having bad days. I'm sorry I don't go in to overdrive manic depressive states. I'm sorry I see a reason to smile most of the time!

I have good days and bad days, just like everyone else. I think I'll quote Daddy here:
"Some days, I look in the mirror and think, 'you ugly bastard' and then other days I look in the mirror and think, 'oh, you handsome devil' ;)"
It's true.

But there's something I know, just like Miss Colleen said: my inner beauty matches my outer beauty and makes me beautiful as a whole.
I'm not big headed - far from it. I have days where I feel like tearing my face off.
But I'm a nice person. I'm friendly, confident, happy, outgoing, compassionate and just nice.
They're good qualities and there's nothing wrong with admitting that I have them.
I'm confident being around myself and around other people.
I have bad qualities, yes. To list a few: I'm snappy, resentful, synical, grumpy and pretty much just hormonal.
But I overwrite these.
I allow my better half to overcome these as much as I can.

I'm not perfect.
I'll never be perfect.
I'm not even close to it.
You may hate me. Fine.
You make like me. Great.
But I just want you to know: I'll try once to reach out to someone but if it's thrown back in my face, if I have to 'prove' that I'm 'good enough' to be someone's friend. I won't try again.

I don't think I can get anyone I want.
I don't think everything's going to come easy to me for being pretty.
I know my level of prettiness is far from the type that gets a person what they want.
I'm averagely pretty. Nothing special, just pretty.
And I'm okay with that.
I'm okay with me.
And that's good.

Just thought some of you needed to understand that.

Much love and peace
Natalie.
♥