Don't You Float Away

"Let's go to bed. Let's stop debating. Look at the time. We're always waiting. But we're in love and that should be just fine.

Well, it seems like things are only getting better. Well, it seems like we can never catch a break.

Just keep a hold on me don't let go. If you float away, if you float away. Waiting too long for a ship to come. Don't you float away, don't you float away."

♥

Just do it. Just let go...

"I believe we write our own stories, and each time we think we know the end, we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and the peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong."

♥

It's Nice To Live Inside My Head Sometimes.

And I get it now. It's dark and lonely and cold, but you come and you make it warm and suddenly, I'm not so lonely anymore. And I get it; I'm like the moon. But you, you're always the sun. You're my sun. And I love you for it.

"When the moon fell in the love with the sun, all was golden in the sky. All was golden when the day met the night."

♥

Love is real, real is love.

If I wrote a list of all the people I want to jump in to bed with, it would never end

but if I wrote a list of all the people who practically, kinda, own my heart, well, this place is saved for a certain someone who makes me squee like a 13 year old fangirl does over Twilight.
Mr. Urie, ladies and gentleman:

We are meant to be! I'm sure he'd agree to our buying of a ship, parking it a few metres off shore and living on it as pirates:

POW!

This boy is the shit.

♥

p.s In case you didn't notice, babe, I gave in :P

RT: Karma's gonna visit you too.

So Keltie's latest blog post made me wanna write this.
I just wanna point out that no matter what people think of me, not matter what rumors have been spread or what judgements people have made about me on a false basis, I just wanna say something:
I like me.
Call me bigheaded. Call me arrogant. Call me cocky. Call me whatever makes you feel better about yourself for trying to bring someone else down.
It's not arrogance. It's confidence.
I'm sorry I don't complain when I'm having bad days. I'm sorry I don't go in to overdrive manic depressive states. I'm sorry I see a reason to smile most of the time!

I have good days and bad days, just like everyone else. I think I'll quote Daddy here:
"Some days, I look in the mirror and think, 'you ugly bastard' and then other days I look in the mirror and think, 'oh, you handsome devil' ;)"
It's true.

But there's something I know, just like Miss Colleen said: my inner beauty matches my outer beauty and makes me beautiful as a whole.
I'm not big headed - far from it. I have days where I feel like tearing my face off.
But I'm a nice person. I'm friendly, confident, happy, outgoing, compassionate and just nice.
They're good qualities and there's nothing wrong with admitting that I have them.
I'm confident being around myself and around other people.
I have bad qualities, yes. To list a few: I'm snappy, resentful, synical, grumpy and pretty much just hormonal.
But I overwrite these.
I allow my better half to overcome these as much as I can.

I'm not perfect.
I'll never be perfect.
I'm not even close to it.
You may hate me. Fine.
You make like me. Great.
But I just want you to know: I'll try once to reach out to someone but if it's thrown back in my face, if I have to 'prove' that I'm 'good enough' to be someone's friend. I won't try again.

I don't think I can get anyone I want.
I don't think everything's going to come easy to me for being pretty.
I know my level of prettiness is far from the type that gets a person what they want.
I'm averagely pretty. Nothing special, just pretty.
And I'm okay with that.
I'm okay with me.
And that's good.

Just thought some of you needed to understand that.

Much love and peace
Natalie.
♥

Back on track!

"Do you believe in something beautiful? Then get up and be it. Fighting for the smallest goal; to gain a little self control. I know how hard you try. I see it in your eyes."

Wacking out Gareth and the girls for some sexy home-toning time. Need to get my abs back to scratch. Stupid gym and their cluttered space.

Much love and peace.

Natalie.

♥

Top 40!

Cobra are #38 in the top 40!
Well done, sexies!

Also, "Better to do the fucking than to get fucked" - Tell it like it is Saporta!
Thought it was appropriate.
Just 'cause.

Anyway, just congratulating one of the sexiest bands on the planet for being so epic!
I've said it like a thousand times and I'll say it a thousand times more:
Fangs Up!



"If the world is ending, I'm throwing the party"



Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

Vegas Baby!

"We're fools wether we dance or not. So we might as well dance"

Vegas is waiting for us. Our boys are waiting for us.

Vegas baby!

♥

Hey Sexy, Cheer Up.

(RT: I can't tell you how much it sucks...)

"It's going to hurt. Let it. Greet the pain. Say, "Hello pain. I understand that we have business, you and I, but don't get comfortable. Because you're not staying."

The Edge of Love and duvet time soon, sexface.

♥

p.s If I had a dick, I'd help take the pain away ;) Smooth, no?

This One's For Me

I don't know how to stress how much I want this.
One day, I will.
One day, I'll set off down a track, backpack slung on my shoulders and sunglasses resting on my nose.
One day, I'll go to that cabin and I'll isolate myself from everyone and everything that means nothing to me.
One day, I'll get there.
I'm waiting.

"I'm going up the country, babe don't you wanna go? I'm going to some place where I've never been before. I'm going, I'm going where the water tastes like wine...We can jump in the water, stay drunk all the time."

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

P.s Third today. Man, I'm good ;)

This One's For You.

This one's for you sugar, for the following reasons:

ONE! - It's my second post of the day. Dickweed.

TWO! - I thought I'd post the creepiest picture of Mr. Ross I could find, just for you(:

THREE! - I told you you'd be mentioned, so here's a whole blog dedicated to your sexy little ass.

Love you sexy.

♥

And I felt you so close

You were always so close.

I could feel your hot breath on my skin,

sending shivers down my spine.

I could feel a ghost of your kiss on my lips.

I could feel your fingers in my hair

on my cheek,

calloused from the rough strings of that battered acoustic.

You were always so close.

But one day I woke up

and one day I realised

you were never close.

You were gone

because you'd never been there.

But I felt you so close...

♥

Better recognise...

Homeslice.

In other news:
On another Cobra kick - Fangs up!

♥

"I like a nice cup of tea in the morning

I like a nice cup of tea for my tea

and round about seven,

my idea of heaven

is a nice cup of tea."

Yeah, I've just come back from Daddy's, how could you tell? :P

I swear I'm stocked up on tea enough now to last a week and it seems my bladder has taken it upon itself to constantly remind me of this...

I was sooo ill this morning, like you wouldn't believe and I don't get ill, so when I do, I don't cope with it well. It was like my world had come crashing around me and my lungs were caving it. Okay, maybe not like that, but it was pretty fucking traumatising! Fuck you Swine Flu! I'm better! Hahhhhh!

Anyhoo, just a quick pop in to say hi. Here, have a picture of me and Daddy, say 'Hi!' everyone!! (and check the hat...)

Ohh, also, icons becuase they seemed fitting(:

Toodloo!

Much love and Peace.

Natalie!

♥

Thinking Time...uh-oh.

Quote of the day:
"You can only see as far as you think."

Sooo, I've been doing some thinking (uh-oh, I know) and of course it's no news that I'm completely 100% sick of North Wales, being stuck here and not being old enough to do anything about it. BUT! I've had a good chat with myself and decided I'm not gonna let this get me down. I'm not gonna give up. I have a future set for me in my head and I refuse to let it go.

I sometimes just sit back and watch my mum do her jazz around the house, cleaning, washing up, cooking and it just makes me so determined to not have that life. That's not me. That's not what I want. I'll never be a housewife, I'm made for bigger and better things and something as fucking shitty as Prestatyn is not going to stop me from getting that.

I will not be stuck here for the rest of my life. I will not become a 'mum'. I'm going to have a reckless, crazy life for now and then I'm going to replace my trilbies and bowlers for a hard-headed business hat and I'm gonna focus on my career (Keeping a flower or two on the business hat though, of course :P) I will be that tour manager. I will travel in a shitty van with no money or food. I will live in a fucking crazily fucked up lifestyle with a bunch of people who just wanna make music. I will help make that happen. I will work my arse off, I will beg and grovel until someone gets sick of me and throws a shitty job my way to just shut me up. I will work for nothing. I will only work the fact that I want this. And I will get it.

I've realised that I can slam my head against the rough wood of this table a thousand times over, I can flail my arms about in frustration as many times as I like but it's not gonna make a difference. Ever. I have to get up and go and make a difference for myself, I have to try everything & anything to be the best I can be. I will grit my teeth and if it gets hard, I'll scream through them, but I will never give up.

If anyone has ever taught me anything, it's that we have to do what makes us happy, because no one else will. The world isn't a nice little place, it's fucking tough and people don't give a shit. People look to drag you down. I won't give them that chance. FEARLESS, after all, is what I've been taught to be.

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

Charles!!

Say hello to Charles, everyone!(: Mine and Neha's bundle of joy.

The newest and sexiest member of my teddy family.

Anyway, just wanted to introduce the world to Charles and say goodnight.

You know you all need to get a blog right? Cause it looks as if I'm talking to myself with no followers :P

I'm not! I swear! ;)

Ohh before I go! Guess what I watched before? Huh?! Only Drop Dead fucking Fred! Brought back so many childhood memories! Haha, class.

Right, off for my coffee and then beddy-byes(:

Night sexies.

Much love and peace.

Natalie.

♥

Quote of the Day

So instead of quote of the day, I've decided to post a poem.
Mainly because I couldn't choose a quote out of it,
it's all amazing.
It's not unknown, but god, is it great:

What ails thee then, woman, what ails thee?
doesn't ter know?
If tha canna say't, come then an' scraight it out on my bosom!
Eh?-Men doesna ha'e bosoms? 'appen not, on'y tha knows
what I mean.
Come then, tha can scraight it out on my shirt-front
an' tha'lt feel better.

-In the first place, I don't scraight.
And if I did, I certainly couldn't scraight it out.
And if I could, the last place I should choose
would be your shirt front
or your manly bosom either.
So leave off trying to put the Robbie Burns touch over me
and kindly hand me the cigarettes
if you haven't smoked them all,
which you're more likely to do
than to shelter anybody from the cau'auld blast. -

Mr, D.H. Lawrence ladies and gentlemen :P
'Nuff sed, frankly.

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

p.s. I watched 'Cursed' last night - a Wes Craven movie.
It's great. Sooo epically cheesy and a crazy all-young-star cast!
Amazing though, just amazing(:

Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince Tour

It seems, my sister has won a competition - yes, an actual competition! :P She's won tickets to go to the HP&HBP tour on the 15th June!


She gets to bring 2 guests and being the complete Harry Potter dorkus I am, she's taking me and the one and only Neha. We get a tour of the set and some of the cast will be there and we get Q&As and everything!!


My inner nerd is screaming! I honestly can't wait. So siked ! Eeeeeeeee!

I'm beyond excited right now! I'm inclined to go and read all my books! Haha (:

Don't worry, I'm still a true fan. I will look for things to slate while I'm there e.g. things that aren't correct in terms of the book...I'm such a dweeb :P

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

Pimpin'

Just jammin' to The Cab with a coffee.

Physics went okay. Today's been amazingly dull, but in a good way(:

So, I've been thinking about getting back into this mediation thing, being the douche I am, I put it on hold for my exams - looking back now, it was possibly the dummest thing I've ever done :P Still, I'm feeling so into it at the moment. I miss it. I used to just sit in my room for half an hour everyday and clear my head of any rational thought.

There's this quote that I just adore; "The function of music is to release us from the tyranny of conscious thought." I think this has to be one of my favorite quotes of all time.

Lately, music has been my mediation. Obviously not having the mind set to be able to sit and rid myself of any pressing thoughts or worries, I've been able to escape to music. Just turning on my iTunes and dancing round to some good ol' Beach Boys, chillin' to some Jack Johnson or jammin' to a bit of Sex Pistols has allowed any stress that has entered my mind to be pushed right back out, even if only for a while.

Exams are nearly over though and I really cannot wait to get back to my medies' ;)

The great thing about buddhism, I've found, is that you don't necessarily need a religious belief of a faith to follow it. I'm a straight up Athetist, always will be, and I love that I can, to an extent, follow Buddhism without believing anything outside of logic.

I see it as a practice of personal strength and kindess. How we can make ourselves better people and be at peace with not only ourselves, but with the world as a whole; nature and humanity. It allows us to become 'one' with ourselves, to understand why it's good to just forget sometimes, why it's good to just "forget about today until tomorrow" (yes, I quote Dylan when rambling about Buddhism :P). It allows us to forget about pointless and irrelevant thoughts flying around our head and increases our chances of learning something new that day if we are more aware of our surroundings.

As for Karma, I approach this with the same concept. I don't believe that by doing good deeds, the universe, or any Gods are rewarding you, I believe that by doing good deeds and by helping people, people reward you. Kindness, hospitality, love, affection - they are all returned, eventually. By continually showing gratitude and by extending a hand to others, they will eventually return these actions, they will always remember how you've helped them. Call it Karma, call it compassion, whatever - it's a fact that not everyone can ignore a good heart and a good personality. People will recognise this eventually and your kindness will be returned.

I think, after reflecting on this, I need to go to my Daddy's for a bit soon and sit with him; he's dead into this stuff too. I think I'll lend a few of his books.

Anyhoo, I am done with my rambling for today.

"Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho, it's off to work we go!"

Much love and peace.

Natalie.

♥

First Post!

Hey party people! (:

So, I've just joined and this is my first post!
Not gonna go straight into the ramblings of my life right now, just getting the hang of this thing.
I don't know what to do just yet, so please bear with me, it won't take me long - promise(:

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥