"Snow Is [No Longer] Falling"

The snow has gone. I'm quite glad. It means I can go jogging without fear of falling flat on my arse.

Apologies for the very scarce posts. I am a busy girl :( I will try much harder from now on! Of course, I am always on Tumblr: http://www.clothesandcoffee.tumblr.com/

For now, have kittens. Lots of kittens.

Big Kitten :P

Much Love and Peace
xx

I'd Rather Be Working for a Paycheck than Waitng to Win the Lottery

So, I haven't posted in a while. I don't really go online much anymore what with college work and other things taking up my time. I have come to realise that I've spent the past year not really living. I went to college, got out of Prestatyn, met new people and fell in love. But when I reflect back, it's all so menial. I mean, I'm still living in the same place, doing the same things with the same people. There's only so many times I can go out and get wasted before it gets boring as well.

I don't look after myself properly anymore - something I wholly regret. I don't go to the gym. I don't go to pilates or salsa aerobics. I don't meditate anymore. I don't dream anymore. I don't listen to music as much anymore - because I'm growing up. I'm becoming part of the machine that is expected of me. I don't want to be part of the machine. I want to be Natalie again. I miss my alone time. I miss days where I would wake up and meditate, go to the gym and spend the day for me.

I wouldn't give up the life I have now but I wouldn't necessarily argue that I'm happier in either life. I love my boyfriend. More than anything. But I don't want to lose myself in this relationship. A year has passed and I'm beginning to realise that I miss me.

College is tough especially when I have to make time in the week for my boyfriend, my dad, my mum, my sister and my friends - where do I fit in? If I get a night alone I usually have work that needs to be done, essays and such.

Luckily, all the things I miss are not impossible to begin again. I need to juggle my time more. I need to find /make even 10 minutes in the day just for me.

Because I miss that.
And I want me back.

It's Been So Long But I Promised I'd Be Back For You

I haven't posted in so long! Have some floral(:











Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

I Just Think You're Kinda Awesome.

I'm still getting used to this relationship lark. It's been about 9 weeks since we met, 3 weeks since we got together and a week since we made it official and I'm still confused. I wouldn't stop it for the world but I'm still kinda freaked out by the whole thing. This is my first relationship in 3 years - my first real relationship - and it's such a change for me emotionally that I'm just a bit jumbled at the minute. It's just strange when I take step back and look at it. I mean, everything's so clear, but it's like I'm wearing someone's glasses, trying to make it clearer but all I'm doing is making it fuzzier.

There's so much I dig about this guy. He turns me into a bit of a female sometimes and I hate him for it but I also kind of love it cause I get to gush over him when he's not looking. I'm very, very much in like of this guy and I'm so so so glad I met him because I've gained another best friend as well as someone I like super much(:

I think the best thing is that because it's so soon in our relationship, I still have so much to learn about him and it's kind of exciting. I don't know what's gonna come but I think, for now, I'm just gonna cherish that little spark I get when I see him smile. I'm just a little bit confused right now and I need to be patient with myself, I think.

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

Frankly, What I'm Trying to Say... Is That I Love You.

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥

Taylor Momsen

You can kill me for my shit post updates :P

Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥