I'm still getting used to this relationship lark. It's been about 9 weeks since we met, 3 weeks since we got together and a week since we made it official and I'm still confused. I wouldn't stop it for the world but I'm still kinda freaked out by the whole thing. This is my first relationship in 3 years - my first real relationship - and it's such a change for me emotionally that I'm just a bit jumbled at the minute. It's just strange when I take step back and look at it. I mean, everything's so clear, but it's like I'm wearing someone's glasses, trying to make it clearer but all I'm doing is making it fuzzier.
There's so much I dig about this guy. He turns me into a bit of a female sometimes and I hate him for it but I also kind of love it cause I get to gush over him when he's not looking. I'm very, very much in like of this guy and I'm so so so glad I met him because I've gained another best friend as well as someone I like super much(:
I think the best thing is that because it's so soon in our relationship, I still have so much to learn about him and it's kind of exciting. I don't know what's gonna come but I think, for now, I'm just gonna cherish that little spark I get when I see him smile. I'm just a little bit confused right now and I need to be patient with myself, I think.
Much love and peace.
Natalie.
♥
